Monday, 7 July 2008

It is a generation thing !

My gran is horrified, that my sister has moved in with her boyfriend, she was not best pleased when my other sister bought a house with her then, boyfriend !! and is only coming around to the idea now they are getting married this Autumn..3 yrs on !
With my parents the things I did, when I was younger, I didn't get away with...... my older sister got away, with a little bit more, and my younger sister, gets away with even more,
Yes attitudes are changing with time, but the older generation takes change with difficulty, sometimes you may not like something, but if you do not accept it, then you lose it, walking on egg shells for a few months may be better than cutting all ties ... growing older can be hard sometimes !

Peeling back the layers

Sometimes it is hard to get to what really matters, we get bogged down in life's crap. and do not appreciate the simple things that much !
i get caught up too easily in the daily stress of life, and do not take the time to think about 1) how lucky I am 2) and also that life sometimes life isn't that bad, yes we all strive for something better, but sometimes what we have is pretty damn good ! we just have to open our eyes to see it.
My parents came down this weekend, I do not get to see them very often, and it was a great weekend, Darcy played with them all weekend and by the end of it she was even saying "pops" to my dad !! Plus he loved the fact that he could feed her, and she would also sit and listen whilst he read her books !!

i have had too much stress lately, over work, Darcy , my own health, money, etc etc etc the list grows, my mother told me this weekend, that her stress suddenly vanished when she turned 40, and that her father was the same ( Great only another 7 yrs to go then !!!)
Getting rid of the stress is the tricky bit ! how I will do this i am still learning, but it is something that has to be done, it is like, opening the blinds, or throwing off the covers, realising that things are not that bad, focus on the good, and get on with it !!
It is on going !

Friday, 4 July 2008

Donkey

What do the donkeys on Blackpool beach have for dinner ???



An Hour... The same as they do in Skegness !!

Ohh yes the humour!!

But this is good for us....

Darcy shrieks with laughter because she thinks it is hilarious to offer somebody a toy, or book, then to pull it away at the last minute !!

Mind you , she thinks it funny to wake up at 4.30am when Jayne got to bed at 1am after cleaning the house !! yep funny eh !??

The gas board came yesterday to maintain our supply, and said rather than re lay the pipe, they would they would use a flexi pipe, from our neighbour to our house !! "a flexi pipe " !! WTF is that , i have visions of a pipe off of a tumble dryer, going over the wall !! better be better than that !!

oh boy, but at least it is the weekend. !! almost !

Wednesday, 2 July 2008

Time to buy that child gate !

Darcy is hyper !
Yesterday she was in a great mood, wanting to play ALL day !! which is great when she is like this ! wanting to hide, then wanting to read books, any books, all the books, together !! especially Fish books !! anything with fish is good !!

But...

She is fast on the floor, i mean her shuffle is quick !! she can be in the kitchen , or hall and looking at the stairs before you can say boo !!, and she is strong too..!!
So the time has come for the child proof gates, i say gates 'cos i bought another one today, sorry Darcy , i hate to curb your crawling but it is for your own good !!

Friday, 27 June 2008

coming down again !

It has been 2 weeks of strangness, a kind of rollercoaster that i have been on, and it has been tough to get off, but if I do not come off, sometimes if feels like i will crash !

Darcy's Op, last week sent my stress levels through the roof, though at the time, you deal with it... the before... and after are the worst bits, time to think about it... and the what if, looking back ! ?

I had a scan this week also, glad that was over, all ok !
since hitting 30 the sense of mortality has really hit me, this has been heightened by the birth of darcy and all the amazing things she learns and does,

I need to remember that the glass is half full, not half empty , life is good, i must remember this, move on and let the good times roll !!

Monday, 23 June 2008

Phew !

What a week !!
It is scary how many thoughts can swill around your mind, especially when all you can do is wait.
Darcy had her heart op, last wednesday, and thankfully it went very well, we took her home on thursday evening ! she was like the new super improved version !!
Having children has focused my mind, on my own mortality, and the need , to stop dwelling on the past... to try and be a more patient person, and also to remember that the needs of others do have to come first very often..... when my daughter had surgery it also focussed me into thinking my worries were a little less important in the big sceme of things !

As we left her on the operating theatre ( the doctors like parents to bring their kids to the theatre room , ) I couldn't bring myself to kiss her bye, I am partially ashamed at this, and partially pleased, because i knew she would be alright, signing the consent forms was hard enough !!

but the differnece in her now is amazing, she had the tests on thursday, and was realeased later that day, her appertite has gone through the roof, she is more inquisative, talkative, playfull, and crawls faster than ever !!! the new improved Darcy !!

I am astounded by her, I truly am

Monday, 16 June 2008

Father's Day.

Father's Day, was good.

I am still getting used to the idea, that I am a father, for years I have given presents and cards to my dad, now I receive them ! ? ! strange...



We had planned to go out for a meal, and too our amazment, Darcy out ate us all... i have never seen her eat so much, then she had a huge tea as well, !! and no "bups" ( thats bread and butter )!

After that we took her to the shopping outlet, and wheeled her around for a while, while I bought too many more plants for the patio, but hey, when there is a sale on, you have to oblige ! right?



after the spag bol, tea, she finally settled down and fell asleep in my arms, but not until she had turned over looked at me, and poked me in the eye!! cheers Darcy !! Having your baby fall asleep in your arms has to be one of the best feelings, being a dad !!



Well no phone call from the hospital on Friday, so we are guessing that the surgery is still going ahead on wednesday ! Darcy's cough is improving, and nerves are not ! if there was anyway of having the surgery instead of her ....... well i'm sure you know that anyway.



onwards and upwards !